I am inclined to sit in my chair and think about past loves that didn’t share my vision.
Dreams and ambitions, reaching goals that prayer brought into fruition.
These past loves didn’t see things my way, yes I tried to sway their thoughts and make them into my mold, my vision.
My eyes were blinded by my ambition to see the sunshine in men with cloudy skies blocking their sun from shining. I am further now convinced that even if their skies were clear that their sunlight would be dull in comparison to mine which would have made even bigger problems…their intimidation of mine.
Love is not a competition; I have no energy to compete. Stop competing with your blessing it’s cooperation that will find loves key and unlock our beautiful mystery.
My soul yearns for its mate not just a casual or a “just because I’m bored” date with wine, roses, and maybe a slice of my favorite… strawberry cheesecake.
Don’t get me wrong, those dates are fun and sometimes informative but when I sum them all up I come up with negative options because they subtract from me.
I need options that will Add and Multiply the essence of me thus creating infinite possibilities for our union that can be divided amongst our children.
Indeed…I am inclined to leave from this chair because my vision is ever clear and someone who matches my sunlight will appear. When he does I hope he brings me a pair of dark shades because we have to be able to see each other…right?
©Brandi N. Anderson
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